Guilty: Results Oriented

Well, it’s official.  I’m results oriented.  Sure, I try not to be, but I am.

Case in point:  Sunday, October 16th.

Mid-afternoon, I sit down to what I think my forte is, a NL ring game on <begin shilling for freeroll> Pokerstars. </end shilling for freeroll>  I decided to move up to the $100 buy-ins for I had achieved my goal of reaching a $3k bankroll.  Then I was in a few hands where I knew things were just not going to go my way.

I call a modest raise with 9Tc and flop a flush.  Problem was, someone else flopped a higher flush.

I raise with pocket A’s and get re-raised by what turns out to be pocket J’s.  We both hit our sets and I should double up.  The final board reads AKQJT.  Split like a walnut.

I hit the stone cold dead nutty, nutty, nut nuts on the turn and get folds all around to a weak lead out.

Buy-in gone, positive attitude gone.  The kids are freakin’ RELENTLESS on me today and I’ve got the mood of one fine-tuned jerkoff of a daddy.

I take a break and watch the Patriots lose in Denver.  It’s not totally unexpected, but not much is these days.

Undeterred, I fire up a two-table $30+3 SNG.  You know how they pay top four, dontcha?  With 5 people remaining, I call an all-in and have my opponent Pantera-style Dominated.  Dom-in-A-shun!  The turn brings his 3-outer and I’m crippled to T560 with 100/200 blinds.  There is no joy in Bloodsville.

Two hands later, I’m dealt pocket Q’s and think I can double up.  I push, get one caller, and then someone else goes over-the-top on me.  Well, duh!  Of course, the guy had pocket K’s.

At this point, I laugh.  It’s a laugh of helplessness, but mainly I laughed because it was then I realized how results oriented I was.  I was letting these random poker hands sullen my mood.  Well, just for shitz’n’giggles, let’s see a flop.  Bah, no Q, but there is an 8 and a T.  Hey a 9 on the turn gives me more outs.  Well, will ya look at that.  A Jack on the river.  My laugh turns to giggles as I more than triple up.

Long story short:

PokerStars Tournament #13873729, No Limit Hold'em
Buy-In: $30.00/$3.00
18 players
Total Prize Pool: $540.00
Tournament started - 2005/10/16 - 16:27:28 (ET)

Dear badblood44,

You finished the tournament in 1st place.
A $216.00 award has been credited to your Real Money account.


Congratulations!
Thank you for participating.

No, thank you Pokerstars, thank you.  The mini’s thank you too, because that small piece of code called the random number generator allowed me to enjoy the rest of the afternoon playing in the back yard with two of the best kids on this planet.  They deserve a better dad, one who’s not so caught up in stupid poker results.

More stuff to work on, it seems never ending.  Perhaps it’s not supposed to end, maybe it’s just supposed to be an interesting journey.